some clarification.

"i did not explain or justify my triggers because trigger implies weapons, weapons imply aim, aim implies combat, combat implies engagement. all i wanted was to feel less engaged, less stuck: i wanted to let go, which is so not my strong suit, any more than forgiveness is. i wanted to be a person of peace, who diminishes hurt in the world, instead of perpetrating it."

{anne lamott}

thanks, anne.

your words help me to understand myself just that much more.